Hell bent on self destruction

I'm starting to feel that urge to self destruct again. It happens like clock work everytime I finally start getting my shit together and grounded back to reality. I've been noticing the signs a lot lately but chose to ignore them.

This time though, I plan on circumventing the usual pattern and doing something else. Hell, my best thinking got me here, right? The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results.

So far so good though, I didn't get sucked into a relationship, one of my ultimate weaknesses. And I didn't just quit my job on a whim like usual. I just need to get my priorities straight and keep checking that azimuth. Fuck dude, I got problems. But that's the first step, is admiting you have a problem in the first place.