To Drink or Not to Drink

Over the past 6 years I have become convinced that I ought not drink. I always thought I was better when I was drunk, but that was the booze thinking. When inebriated, I had instant "liquid courage" to back me up. I was also Adonis in my own mind. I was a bad ass pool player, and I could play the guitar like a rock god.

In reality, none of this was true. If I'm drunk I'm not any good to anyone, including my selfish self.

As of late, I've been struggling with my sobriety, ergo, I'm dangerously close to a relapse.

I think I'm sub-consciously trying to get fired and drunk. At least I recognize it, however.

At least for today, I'm still sober.